my thoughts...

This one is for a friend, a stranger who help me..when i came to a strange place..

In my life you came
And gave me your hand
And never did I imagined
From a stranger, a help i'll get

Thanks for the help
You gave without regret
AS long as I live
A friend like you...i'll never forget...

It's been a long time since i last wrote at my blog..coz i've been away and go to other country and find a job..but it's hard for a mother to go... left her love one at home..that's why i am feeling when i left my little baby girl at home..but then all of this are for her, for her to have a better future..coz raising a child alone is very hard...so this is for my LITTLE ONE

She brings sunshine to my life
Whenever i see her smile
And when her laughed I heard
Sadness has no place in the heart

Pain i felt when i left her
Tears in my eyes that i always hide
And how it really breaks the heart
When i sleep without her hug

Oh..how i missed thee
The innocent face and her scent
And the happiness i felt
When an ANGEL, at home i left...

That's how my LITTLE ONE
Works miracles in my life
And to GOD, am forever thankful..
For giving me...my LITTLE ONE..

Bless the man that I LOVE
Always keep him safe while he drive
Make his heart a humble one
And may his kindness stay in his heart...

I was really HURT...

When the man that I love brought me home with all of my things, knowing that time was the last time that I will see him, the last time that I could be with him..

I am expecting this things to happen..but I didn't expect that it can be worst like this, that I could be hurt like this.... HURT that I almost wish that it will be better for me to die than to live without him..I AM REALLY, REALLY HURT right now, HURT that I don't want the night to come coz the pain will be worst... without seeing and hearing him breathing and that I don't want to wake up in the morning without him on my side..surely my nights will be sleepless and many tears i will shed..Why do I need to be HURT by the man that I LOVE with all my LIFE...

Oh, how I was really HURT.... I did everything, I gave him my heart and my soul..I even bowed down on my knees for him to LOVE ME..but still I can't have his heart..Where did I go wrong? Is my LOVE not enough?...Why do I need to get HURT?...

T'was one December night
When you and I met
Eyes that seemed so sad
Really catch the heart

I am a friend if you need one
And when your sad I could be your clown
Until the day you got old
I can be your COMPANION
When NO ONE is AROUND

May 16, 2007

Today, as i wake up i am happy knowing the man that I love was on my side..It's a good feeling that u have the chance to watch him while he's sleeping, to hear him breathing and even saw his smiles while he sleep..but then IS THAT SMILE FOR ME? I always wondering if he's dreaming about me...